Monday, January 31, 2011
since you wann brk than brk ba.
now my heart had no feeling le .
since you now like wann running away from me than go ba.
haiz.
i just don understand why ?
maybe i cant trust boy again ba.
another failed rs by me ):
haiz.
i so tired ):
hope after my holiday you would just think what happened tu you.
i don wann to say le . 1 feb 11 i just don understand what had happened to you ?!
coz of her ? and you anyhow think?
haiz.
if you wann think and wann brk i can tell you during tat 1month i already wanted tu brk wif you ?
but than i don dare to brk coz i scare i hurt dao you ?
tat why tat feeling had gone.
i just love you wif my wholed heart (:
why cant you understand me ? ):
ytd i went tu eat my dizzy med just to mute my heart pain ):
went tu cut my hand ):
around 11 toh in my bed dao 4.30 woke up saw dao you wann brk ):
haiz.
i just don understand why ?
you told me before say you love me badly and now ?
you know how hurt i have ma ? ):
you just think nia!
you sad who pei you who sayang you ?
you angry who pei you and tell you joke ?
you cry who pei you ?
you sick who pei you and go hospital visit you ?
and now you wanted to brk wif me ?
FML! i hate this feeling seriously.
no wonder ppl is me so foolish to fall for you.
haiz.
now you just like cyp like how he hurt me
thanks alot.
ytd my heart reali bleeding alot.
i still tot we could celebrate our 2month after i come back from beijing.
i think this idea can throw away le.
now idk wat i should do le. ):
haiz.
i oso can slp ytd i didnt slp well.
today my lesson start at 12 yet i 7.35 woke up just wann post my blog.
i don noe you still will see anot lor.
haiz.
baby, i just wann know what had happened tu you!?
now the problem is not me but you!
so what i in ITE?
i in ite almost 2month did i fall in love wif other guy ?
no rite ?!
is just ur bullshit idea !
reali is just ur bullshit nia.
haiz.
just don understand why ?! haiz ): Labels: don understand why ? its been raining for almost 2days le.
and finally it stop yeap!
today morning is rain.
and baby ask me take my blanket and become sushi.
later baby wann eat me if i become sushi. x.x
went tu as normal just tat it start at 9.
reach bishan around 8 something.
it started tu rain heavily.
heng i got bring umbrella.
on the way tu sch my shoes started tu wet.
next is my bag and my efc file wet too.
x.x
dry umbrella in the class.
at 9.45 had a talk by a company by sat is from airport de.
coz i tio the attrachment and i been interview .
suddenly i don feel like going for attachment le.
coz is like 4 weekends.
is like i already had no time for baby. for wat still go attachment.
yea right.
1h $5
20hrs $100 le x.x
just try luck then.
after sch went tu junction 8 have lunch wif friends.
around 2 or 3 i zao le.
reach home eat nuts and i toh.
4.30 my popo call.
i should be 5 go down take rice but then i slp dao 5.30 than go down take rice.
x.x
keep on yawnz!
nv been so tired be4. ):
maybe i should end here ba.
tat all the rest i lazy to say le. (: you are back. (:
just the way you make me smile.
just the way you tell jokes for me tu hear.
just the way you talk tu me and mai GL me! ):
er, i don what tu post le.
well let me say this.
since this is he and you the past.
for what wann tell me and repeat the story again ?
i have before this type of feeling before.
i hurts alot of time by my ex.
so why not let go this feeling and continue your life ?
right ?
you continue this feeling and you will not be happy.
tat all.
Labels: forgive and forget ba. Saturday, January 29, 2011 30 jan 11
its been long since i post it.
well let me post it now.
its been couple of days we have so call "cold war"
i don noe what happened between us ?
is it my fault ?
i feel lost rite now.
i feel tat you have totally change into other guy.
this type of feeling i don wann it happened like wat he done tu me. ):
every nite i hugged pooh and tears.
friday and sat you didnt msg me at all ?!
what happened ?
can tell me ?
you like change totally.
i scare! ;sob!
i don noe wat should i do rite now ?
all your reply sms feel so cold.
i don like it.
now i tears again.
now you happily shopping and eating sushi teh for your lunch ?
how good isit ?
you every nite you will call me chat but now ?!
you did not.
why coz your tired.
i don noe isit truth ?
i don noe!
i just have no idea what had happened ?
you last time will alway sms me double and ask why am i replying late ?
now ?
you just send me 1 sms and you nv reply again. ):
even you every time you eat you will text me first than you eat.
but now ?
you did not even sms me say you eating?
what the hell isit going on?!
FML! i reali don like this story!
if can i would like tu change tu other chapter of the story but not this.
now even i slping i will have nitemare.
nowaday all ur sms all so late reply ?
reply le than nvm feel so cold.
after every quarrel you would say sorry tu me but now ?
you did not even say a single sorry to me ?
but yet you went tu sleep ?
you know i this morning 2 than sleep.
why ?
waiting for your reply ?
i cant even sleep properly ):
even i seh i oso don dare tu tell you ?
why ?
coz i scare you worry.
but i wrong you did not even care at all.
my heart now bleeding.
i just wann wake up from this nitemare i have!
i reali don wann this !
i reali wann make you smile again.
just me onli. isit tat hard ?
ytd i ask you tat question isit tat hard for you to answer ?
i just wann know why you love me ?
got wrong meh ?
i soon wann go beijing le.
i don noe what will happened after i come back?
will we still continue ?
will we still be the same as last time ?
will you be as sweet as last time ?
tears continue drop non stop.
tat all for now. ;sob! Labels: will we still be continue ? Wednesday, January 26, 2011 26 jan 11
haiz. just viewed ur fb profile.
i should not see at first ba.
haiz.
suddenly sae dao you accept or added dao so many gals wor.
haiz.
suddenly got gal post thing tu you wor.
see dao you like having fun wif tat gal wor.
haiz.
and now great i jealous and no mood le.
how am i surpose tu cheer you up and myself ?
haiz.
i got nth to say le. reali spoilt my mood.
Labels: what should i do ? Monday, January 24, 2011 well is been long time since i post it
let me post again.
why ?
coz baby ytd keep on nagging me while i wann toh le ):
lets begin wif 20 jan coz some of the post i have forget wat did i do le.
20 jan 11
as normal after sch went tu meet baby.
suppose tu meet at woodland de.
but baby call me reach woodland than tell him he say go bukit botak or gombak eat.
than i is okay lor. hehe.
finally meet dao baby le!
eat dao hao le.
went home.
tat all.
21 jan11
today lesson should end at 12 but than our english teacher didnt not came.
so 1h period of bpf was push towards.
and it end at 11.
so i call my aunt say i will be going back hss to see my junior.
wif my less partner elaine.
went dao 12.45 my aunt suddenly call me and i tell her say i waiting for bus.
and i told her say is oppsite car petrol there. x.x
went tu bm eat.
still got more but yet i lazy tu post and some i already forget le.
22jan11
at my aunt house eat dinner.
after tat she give me surpise.
i didnt noe at all.
25jan 11
which is today!
1 year older le ):
but yet ppl still think i 12 or 13 de xmm lai de. ;shy
well my eye still got abit of sowllen or maybe i cant fully open.
tat all for now.
maybe later going see doc or going sch .
Wednesday, January 19, 2011 19 jan 11
today went tu sch coz no mc x.x
alarm rang at 6 yet i continue slp dao 6.30 x.x
damm tired sia.
went tu class as normal.
text baby.
skip so part coz lazy tu say x.x
today end sch at 3.
haiz.
i now can say i veri shag i don noe wat happened tu me sia.
well tat all for now. Monday, January 17, 2011 17 jan 11
today lesson start at 9 but i woke up at 6 plus sms baby.
coz at tat time i need tu get rdy for sch.
7 leave house.
8 reach reach sch ?
tat was fast.
first lesson lots of ppl was late.
the cs teacher call one of my friend say tat lesson will start at 9.30
everyboday was like walao le.
hehe
was chatting wif some of my friend.
almost 10 the teacher come.
teach dao 11 it was english period.
fking sianz.
soon i need tu do some role play and it will have no time tu pei baby le.
):
around 12.57 i tell the teacher lesson finish le.
the teacher believe it. x.x
i quickly MRT down tu yew tee.
be4 tat i reach bishan MRT.
i was finding the wat towards jurong east tat side de.
but i went wrong place.
later ppl tot i was playing maze x.x
around 1plus or 2 reached yew tee le.
finally saw dao baby.
lots of day didnt saw dao him le ):
missdiehim le. ):
around 3 plus it started tu rain.
baby hold my umbrella.
he keep on at there nag me sia ):
than i say how i know sia.
it rain so heavily.
around 6 my mummy reached home i than bath :x
during tat time i started tu find things wann quarrel wif baby :p
i didnt know tat ytd i slp quit early.
around 9 plus i toh le didnt tell baby ):
18 jan 11
around 12 plus woke up saw baby text and i reply.
than toh back.
around 5 plus baby reply my text i around 6.30 reply his text and pei he text.
but late reply. :x
around 9 plus woke up feel not so good.
don wann tu go sch ):
i text baby say i went tu see doc.
see hao doc le and get hao mc le.
around 12 plus baby nagging at me.
around tat time i was eating tibits.
eat hao le .
i toh back coz the med making me dizzy ):
than baby keep on say me. ):
well i sick baby don let me use com too much ):
need off le . Sunday, January 16, 2011 15 jan 11
haiz.
i feel tat our rs veri complicated.
i don noe wat i been think about.
baby is sick again.
i cant be by his side.
this few days didnt meet dao baby.
i do miss him badly.
now a day i been crying just for you.
ytd nite baby have fever again. ):
kidney and stomach isit a big different ?
baby ytd tot me tat doc say he stomach infection in the end baby say he got kidney infection i chuo tio lor ! ):
text baby half way baby toh le.
than left me behind.
his kor kor suddenly use his phone text me say am i vanessa lee wann xian.
not xian but is xuan!
haiz.
baby ytd while sleeping he keep on repeat my name.
baby , imissyou ):
faster record pls!
may the god heal my baby.
i don wann anything happened tu him ):
16 jan 11
today woke up at 6.
was late tu meet my friend at tiong.
reached expo around 7 plus.
so some of my classmate.
8 meet our CA teacher at expo subway.
baby today so early wake up and pei me text. ):
as long as you text me can le.
today went tu expo to do some cpr at the dummy.
was form in group of 8.
i like keep on pumb the dummy dao my both hand red red de ):
haiz.
baby today didnt meet me again ):
haiz.
around 2 plus think having cold war wif baby again.
i don noe wat tu do.
my feeling like baby been force tu reply my text.
baby keep on asking me tu smile.
but in the end not i make him smile.
i just wann tu make my baby smile.
guess i didnt make it today.
tears drop again... T.T
i reali do miss my baby.
3 days didnt meet dao baby do reali miss him alots T.T.
well tat all for now. Labels: miss my baby badly ): Friday, January 14, 2011 well didnt post for this few day coz busy wif ite study.
than baby keep on nag wann me tu post. ):
12/1/11
today end at 3 plus coz teacher see us like so tired.
so let us early dissmissed.
end i call baby.
well i did forget wat happened during tat day.
13/1/11
today end at 12.
baby ytd admitted tu hospital ):
after sch went tu buy my uniform than went tu bishan inter.
take bus 57 down tu kk hospital pei baby ):
see baby so pain. sayang baby.
baby say the nurse take 4 bottle of his blood!
OMG! tat much can de lor.
poor baby.
around 2 went down wif baby tu kopitam coz he know tat i havent eat.
so he pei me eat.
eat hao le go up again.
rest at his bed.
like i the patient not him :x
than got 1 doctor keep on looking at me =.=
than he chat wif my baby i keep on looking at the tv.
chat on le baby went tu toilet.
than around 4 baby say he wann eat than i say eat hospital food larh!
he don wann.
than eat hao le he went back to his ward.
the nurse take his bp it reali went up tu 140 x.x
haiz.
tat all for today x.x
14/1/11
baby today had discharge yeaph!
today don need tu go visit him le.
but than had quarrel wif baby.
i don noe why sia.
haiz.
is like he just discharge from hospital than he go home rest.
at nite he got company function after tat function he went tu drink wif his father x.x
i jitao no comment sia.
haiz.
internal bleeding sia.
cry the whole nite.
didnt not slp tat well.
keep on wake up in between my slp ):
15/1/11
today wake up at 8 plus.
once i wake up i abit seh seh le ):
ytd nite cry tu much le.
cry dao 1 plus baby didnt sms me anything as usual.
he just jitao toh le ):
haiz.
tat all for now ): Tuesday, January 11, 2011 today is the five 1.
mean five 1 = 11/1/11 ?
lols! lame.
nvm.
10/1/11
after celebrate wif baby during sun.
and is monday i have tu reach sch at 9.
than i got this 1 friend call ren wei.
he sms me say wann meet ma ? than tgt go sch.
than i say okay lor.
so i wait for him at bishan inter 8plus ?
reach oppsite bishan ite it started tu rain.
i quickly run it.
wearing henderson sec uniform so xiasuay lor!
than mark attendence.
after tat go up to the mph.
mph= multi purpose hall ? x.x
than they start tu talk talk talk dao my leg numb ):
than having ice-breaker call wackco.
must remember the classmate name =.=
after tat i forget le.
after sch i went tu bishan inter take 57 .
it take lots of time tu travel lor.
takes like almost 2hrs ? =.=
skip some of the part.
around 9 plus.
i text baby the last sms and i toh till this morning 3plus reply baby sms.
and toh back.
wann toh tat time saw tat pooh is on the floor :x
hehe.
pick it up and toh back till 5.30 am. 11/1/11 this morning 5.30 wake up
went tu brush teeth and wash face.
this morning freaking cold.
i keep on ahchew!
than on com fb alwhile around 6.30 take bus go tiong eat mac.
eat hao le.
than take MRT tu raffles place change tu marina bay toward jurong east ?
reach bishan they havent reach.
i keep on kp my friend call ren wei why keep on late sia.
than skip some part.
i lazy talk about today sia.
today baby 2 plus reach bishan yet i tell him soon.
he quickly bath and MRT down tu bishan :x
sorry baby.
and i relised at 3 x.x
meet baby at junction 8.
went down tu tiong eat KFC.
and went home.
toh alwhile around 7 plus.
my father keep on kp me keep on asking me wake up buy his dinner =.=
well tat all i lazy post sia. feel like wann toh again. but i wann listen tu baby voice ):
wann him stay by myside. ):
sianz. tml start sch and it end at 4 ):
cant meet baby le ): Labels: baby iloveyou Sunday, January 9, 2011 back homw sweet home. thanks baby during the 1month. i feel veri happy tu have you. and thanks baby for the pooh tat you give me for the 1month anniversary <3 have fun today! hope baby oso have lots of fun. here are the pic tat i take. Labels: happy 1month anniversary baby. Saturday, January 8, 2011 9Jan 11
baby, happy 1month anniversary tu you! iloveyou!
tat all for now.
gonna meet baby later. :D Labels: happy 1month anniversary tu you 8 jan 11
whis is today.
ytd nite baby call me and chat dao 1plus.
baby keep on calling me see i toh anot than keep on say baby iloveyou.
than he oso know tat he keep on calling tat coz nth tu do.
i keep on asking him tu toh he don wann.
need wait till i wann toh like tat than he will toh.
funny ar ?
x.x
we chated about 1h 48min x.x
didnt brk the record.
today morning 8 plus wake up saw dao baby msg around 5 plus and dk wat time de.
and i reply
after tat toh back slp dao 9plus wake up.
baby jiu say me zhuzhu!
): he veri bad ar ?
hehe. around 10 went down tu cresent tu eat my breakfast wif my mother.
after tat take the passport pic.
coz the ite need it.
dk for wat ?
so ugly lor.
eat hao and do hao the pic le went back home.
sweep and mop the floor.
baby jiu say me so guai ar ?
than i like lazy reply bbay.
so leave my phone at charge.
went tu eat my tibits.
sunflower seed. :x
around 2 went tu bm NTUC wif my mummy.
buy things.
reach home around 4 plus.
see tv alwhile and now i rite here type my blog.
i need tu post if not baby keep on nag me! ;wild! woah. baby.
veri fast and tml is our 1month le.
did not know tat we went through lots of things.
like quarral , my hot temple , your overseas , ignore your sms or call :x and my jealous :p
thanks baby.
baby , iloveyou and imissyou badly.
yeah. tml can meet you le.
you still don wann tell me the time and where you wann tu watch the movie sia ?!
x.x
well tat all for now. Friday, January 7, 2011 6jan 11 back for posting again. if i don post my baby will nag at me again ): baby ytd veri early jiu toh le. ps me alone. around 9 plus i send baby 1 sms. it say. baby piggy! imissyou badly ): sigh. well let me say smth sweet thing for you. baby, you are just an gift tat god sent it tu me. i so happy tat i have this type of boyfriend. no matter wat hope you wont leave this hot temple little missy. :x you promise me me be4 le. so no matter what you cant leave me :p baby, iloveyou. mauckz! but i prefer real de. soon it will be our 1month. during the 1month i know my attitude sux. i know i jealous veri easy but then you will let me but not quarrel wif me. thanks baby. from your love one : vanessa (: hope tat sunday we could meet. well tat all think that you still sleeping like pig! but still my baby , dear , honey, sweetheart. sweet ar ? tat all for ytd. 7jan11 today moring 8.30 wake up. text baby say i wake up le. baby moring till 12 plus bo text dao me wor. coz he say his teacher change into firece one ? =.= today around 11 meet my aunt at my house downstair drive tu tiong x.x coz i today went tu tiong watch movie. the tittle is ghost must be crazy. cmi don noe tonite can slp ma. coz once i watch ghost movie i maybe cant be slp le x.x the starting part and middle part veri scarly. than last few part veri funny. the ah hui change tu xiaojuan =.= around 2 its finish. than after tat went tu chinatown coz my aunt need tu buy thing. after tat my aunt drive me home. reach home around 4 plus. and i toh dao almost 6 wake up :x :p well tat all. now texting wif baby. my cubby hubby! <3 Wednesday, January 5, 2011 4 jan 11
today went to bishan ite wif my aunt.
be4 tat 1.30pm went down eat my breakfast plus lunch.
rice didnt eat finish.
dk why :x
than my aunt drive me tu hss there take money voucher.
after tat went tu bishan ite.
on the way to bishan text - ing wif baby.
he hor!
first day of sch jiu so naughty le!
naughty baby! :x
reach bishan around 2 or 3 plus reach bishan
like no 1 de.
my number is 277 but i reach there is already 275 =.=
i tell my aunt like no 1 de.
after req hao le.
went tu other side take ez-link card photo x.x
take hao le.
my aunt drive us tu tiong and shop.
coz nth tu do.
reach home 5.
5 jan 11
today baby nv go sch.
pon sch!
horhor!
naughty baby!
he didnt went tu sch but went tu woodland find his friend.
so pei him text - ing.
he reply sms super slow sia!
slow pig!
i gonna be fat soon le.
coz around 11 plus i eat my breakfast.
than next 1h i eat my lunch. :x
gonna be pig le.
than baby say no lor!
x.x
at nite le.
i charging my phone.
so don wann reply baby sms.
around 9 plus reply him why miss my text ar ?
he call me i answer he jitao firece me wor.
few min later i kup his phone.
sms quarrel again.
haiz.
ytd percent reali drop till 50%
reali no kidding.
my stead don dare tu firece me.
once it firece it will drop auto to 50%
nice ar.
sms dao 12.
than baby call and chat alwhile than we toh.
=.=
6jan 11
today my didi was late leave to leave the house.
than my baby leh.
oso late and need rush tu sch.
see larh!
don wann slp early is like tat.
now at principle office.
why ?!
coz he attire fail and attitude teacher.
maybe need go home.
woah go home so happy hor.
than he say yea so tat can chat wif you.
but than i say i don wann chat wif you leh!
than he wah shag!
hehe.
baby ar!
why you hor!
sch reopen not even 1 week you got so many problem le!
sigh.
don know wat tu say you leh.
tuesday oso the same
tio catch by his DM / teacher.
sigh.
no comment for you le.
tat all for now.
Monday, January 3, 2011 baby msn - ing me half way he suddenly ask me what is his weakness point?
and i reply ? .
he say :my weakness is you , you are just like a organ in my body , without you it wont work properly . without you i would be dying .
so dont never leave me please i say : awww!!!
he say :
I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. ( still got chinese words but cant be read ) sweet ar ?!
three day didnt post my blog le.
feel so dead now.
31 dec went tu my aunt house.
count down at there didnt know go out during nite time.
morning meet baby dao 1 plus went tu take MRT tu bishan meet my aunt.
at nite veri late than slp coz count down and see - ing tv.
while texting baby.
1jan2011
happy new year people.
is a new year.
hope baby and i wont quarrel tat much as last year the dec ?
loveyou baby.
2jan2011
nth to post coz veri sianz.
and i lazy to post.
3jan2011
today 11 leave my aunt house tu jurong point.
coz be4 tat my aunt ask my help her do her hair.
so i do the instand haor rebond dao veri long.
so reach baby house around 12 like tat.
rest alwhile than around 1 went tu yew tee point the foodcourt eat.
eat dao almost 2 plus.
baby send my tu MRT station.
reach home 3.
tml going bishan ite for req le.
shag.
hope can get dao cck.
just now see the sch fee about $159 x.x
so ex.
now msn - ing wif baby.
lazy to post le.
iloveyou baby! <3 Labels: iloveyou deeply baby. |
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