guess starting of june. i should not meet u all as a fam outing. should not let u fall in love in with me. should not let u tio hurt.

sorry for all this month of caring and sayang me.

jie is rite.

maybe i should give u chance but. i just cant give.

i don noe why. just don noe why.

maybe scare ba.

haiz.

now i feeling down.

i really don wann talk about r/s le.

very down.

who can cheer me up ?

guess no 1 ba.

i should take all e blame ba.

haix.

is it i the cause of this problem?

why cant i granted jie e wish leh ?

haiz.

should be gone e 1 should be me ba.

haix

sorry all e causing that i make.

back for posting.

jie! reali miss you leh!

haix. didnt not sms for 4 days le. reali cant get use of e feeling like how u use tu sms me every morning.

i now feeling veri down.

can u tell me wat tu do in my dream ?

best jie in e world.

sorry tat didnt noe sms u e last sms tu u.

veri sorry. veri regrets.

hope tu see u in my dreams and tell me wat tu do.

for my beloved jie!
is lyke u gone too sudden le.
all of us reali cant accept it.
u didnt sms us e last word and u just leave us without saying.

still remember this sms tat we alway use tu msg ?

jie - vanessa. I hope you will forget about cloud. i can see you still got feeling toward him. but i am now with him. i hope you understand.
me - who you ? selina ?
jie - ya
me - u will nv understand de about this feeling.
jie - i will understand it. we are girl. the feeling of your love leaving you to another girl.
me - x.x haix. is just tat boy keep on playing e feeling. just lyke him.
jie- but what about your e. he look like he dont play feeling de. he is a good guy. but just look like annoying onli.
me - nia. dib talk about him. no feeling toward him. how you get my number de ?
jie - your facebook de phone book. i see no feeling toward him. feeling can be create back de.
me - x.x nia. i don wann. but u still don understand my feeling de even though we are gal.
jie - so tell me how is the feeling ? i got 1 ex. he play dao very bad. i dont know how tu sae. but the feeling is just veri bad.
me- u noe this feeling i have is 2nd time le. being play by other ppl.
jie - that is why you should choose a guy who is really faithful. though break le. can also start a new. my ex once play me. he got 2 gal outside i dint know. he still sweettalk to meand ask me help him do thing. i help him and love him but one day he just throw me away and sae he got his real lover le. haix.
me - haix~gal is alway lyke tat being play by other boy.
jie- but there are some boy who are really faithful. that is veri hard to find. even some they treat you veri good. but after few month they will throw away you. and after they do tat they dont feel anything. those who are faithful are those tat once break their promise but after that they try tu chase her back their lover. even if the gal is loving another guy already. that is the type of guy who is reali faithful. you should get hold of it.
me - haix~wtf la. haix. why every1 wann me patch back wif him. i just don wann. coz no feeling.
jie - no one force you. but just want you to know that is a wonderful guy that is really loving you beside you. yes you might not have feeling toward him. but if one day he try to protect you and get kill ? you will know that you just lost a very good guy who does not play with people feeling. to tell the truth. your ex, he is shy. he dont show his care out directly. when he is being xianlan or guai lan to someone he know, but actually he is showing his care but in a directly way.
me - just don talk about him. now hating him. dont let me hate you again x.x
jie - okay fine. just want to tell you that good guy are around you that you dont know only. what happen that he make you so hate him ?
me - he keep on smsing me and fan me. which is after we brk than i stead wif dick that time he oso keep on sms - ing me. is so annoying!
jie- you kow why is he being so annoying ? is beacause he care about you. he stll love you. breaking with you might have a reason behind it but i don see why he love you so much and he still break. dick told me tat your ex break with you cause he want you to forcus on your study because he sae you are easily distract if there is anyone around you. he reali think about you and your future he want you study well first than get you back.
jie - now i going to say something i think you will hate me that is. i think i know why he want you to get back to him, that is bacause he dont want you tu get hurt from other boy out there playing girl feeling. he know that i and dick and you will hate him. if he told you that time that i and dick stead and dick brk up with you is because of me. but still he still tell you the truth and make you hate him more. he is carrying the burden to let you knoe the truth than to keep you in the dark when he know what happen.
me - nia. he does not even noe that u and stead. dick tell him that he had no feeling for me. but why should dick still bluff me tat he don have stead le. after dick and i brk? i noe tat u 2 stead. why cant sae out the truth le ? haix~after all u still e 3rd party.
jie- your ex know after 2 day later after dick break with you.i ask your ex something about dick. that was when he ask me if i was steading with dick. i gave out myself out and let him found out. i tell him not to tell anyone. but still he told you. he know what actually happen about dick break wif you. because the day dick break with you was to be with me. that was the real reason. your ex know about it and he told you about it. because he dont want you to be hidden in the dark. dick tell not to tell anyone untill after our first month. we are hidding our relationship because dick break up with you and he dont want you tu hate me that wy he did that.
jie - if you notice something. that is dick break wif you say he was the third party and give up. he use that as a reason to leave you and the onli way he can do it is to use yours as a shield. dick use your ex.
me - i noe. haix~i still noe tat 1 month u both gonna do------ rite ?
jie - ----- after one month than we are going to tell people that i and dick stead for one month le.

me - do ----- la. he tell me de.

jie- wth la. he told you that. that one he shouldnt say it... haix. later i go scold him. but still. i believe that you ex also did that to you right.

me- x.x yea. he tat still ask me tu help him. don tell him this hor. but i rejected him le.

jie- orh... but your ex ? i believe he got do to make you --------- ?

me - being force.

me - and wth did u tell dick tat thing ?

jie - nevermnd i wont blame you. you help me or else i wont even know. i will scold him. how dare he.

me - haha! he sae me evil queen.

jie- you and ur ex really like the same. one like evil king and one like evil queen. btw vanessa. why don you talk to your ex nicely. you will know tat he will talk back nicely. now because of no feeling toward him and ingnore him. try talking to him nicely. try it.

me - nia. don wann. i and him nth tu sae.

jie - that e point you two dont have anything to talk. why not just chat with him. any topic will do. you will find out his real side. deep inside him is full of inhappiness. he is being annoying all this is to hide his real side. and don want you to know about his real side or let his real side affect you. that why he keep on disturb people talk to people joking around all this.

me - i noe his real side. sianz . i don wann sae anything about dick le la. he blaming me.

jie- just now i talking about your ex not dick. i also lazy talk to dick now. abit unhappy.

me - x.x

me - sorry for making u unhappy. should not tell u tat.

jie - i saying your ex just now. your ex is a full of unhappiness person is to hide from you. he don want his unhappiness affect you and him. that why is choose to act stupid and bad person.

me - aiya . stop saying about him. the more u sae e more i hate him.

jie - no actually i should be happy because i don like be hide in the dark. and no girl like their boy to hide thing from them. thx vanessa.

me - same lor. but dick sometime hide thing. he does not wann us to noe. he die le ma ?

jie - why hate him. you hate him mean you still have abit of feeling toward him. if you don like him you should have ingnore him. that it because you hate him is you still have some feeling but don wann admit it so you turn love into hate for him. you will not agree with me vanessa. but i know all this more than you. your heat hide thing from you which you do not jnow even for yourself. instead of hating why not change.

jie - die what ? i just lie to him say i go slp but actually abit angry at him want ingnore him alwhil. tomorrow will be fine already.

me - nia don wann. toward him i have no feeling le. so hate or ingnore does not matter anymore le.

me - he say he going tu die le .

jie - you say you not feeling. but there is still feeling. in love. you will say no feeling all this. all are lying to yourself because it is your heart playing trick on you . your heart play a big role in love. your heart can hide your ture feeling or open your true feeling.

jie- than let him die awhile. he dare die i comfirm go hell hunt him. i will hunt my bii de haha.

me - haha. haix. i don noe. does tat care ? what if i say i now still got feeling for dick ?

jie - i cant say anything about you having feeling for dick. i know that . but dont you think you doing this is like your ex ? still having feeling for love one. that is love cycle. trust me. try to give your ex a very last chance. he blew it than his gone.

me - no thanks. not gonna give him a chance le. say e truth i was e same secdonary school as him. i like him be4 in secdonary. at first i don believe him. he told me that he love me for 4 years le since i was in primary school. than slowly i started to accept dick as a stead. but didnt stead for 1 week jiu brk wif me and stead with u le. i could not take it as first when u and him stead. i was emo for e 3 days.

jie - but when you write thing on facebook. your ex is the one there for you. a boy saying he love you for 4 year is cheating someone feeling. because if he did why now than ask for stead and not withen a week go with another girl that is the truth guy that every girl want. you can keep reject him a lot of time but he wont give up on you.

me - i don noe wat tu do.

jie - see you now is trying to understand it ? you are being hide in the dark by ur heart. to tell the truth dick is a type of person that is abit unfaithful to girl . but i will control him and make sure he dont anyhow.

me - hope i can understand ba. trying tu forget about him.

jie - you should forget about dick . even he go back to you. the same thing will happen again. your ex is alway there for you. i want know something this few day did your ex try to do anything to you ?

me - who ?

jie - your ex? did he try to talk to you anything ? or give you anything?

me - yes. he give me a ring. but i don wann to accept it. not gonna accept his ring.

jie - wat kind of ring? anything on it ?

me - couple ring. don have thing on it.

me- aiya stop saying about rs le. wann study better for my result. than go better ite. x.x

jie - to say the truth. i will say that you are abit stubborn. you know the meaning of ring ? that he gave to you ? for a guy to break wif girl. and if the guy wann patch back normally they will give flower. but ring is different. when nothing is on the ring and he give it to you. mean start over a new.

jie - so you going which ite ?

me - yea i noe. but i don wann. still don noe which ite le. maybe seimei or cck ite.

jie- go cck ite. that is bette. all the ite lose to cck ite. not because it is new. but inside got alot of good teacher and system. seimei lose already. vanessa i wont say anything about relationship le . but one final thing. you be single untill your exam is over focus on your study first. your ex is still there waiting for you. give him a chance?

me- okay. not gonna give him a chance but tu accept other ppl. thanks alot (:

jie- no no no. you got it wrong. i mean give your ex a chance first. promise me that you will do it and stay single for the time being untill your exam is over ?

me - okay. i noe wat u mean. but i say be4 le. not gonna accept him. and try to forget him.

jie - haix. your really stubborn. why wont you listen to me. the one you should forget is dick and the one to give a chance is ur ex.

me - aiya i noe wat tu do de. after N than sae this ba.

jie - okay but keep this is mind. good luck for your studies. you should go back get rest le . tomorrow no engergy to forcus on studies. no matter what happen tu me and dick. you should never give dick a chance. never give a dick a chance to go back to you.

me - haha okay. thanks alot (:

jie - your welcome. helping you is my part as a girl. :) age of 16 in secdonary school. there are alot of thing you will never understand. but when your 17 and not in secdonary school anymore. you will know alot of change. thaat is why i will help you with your rs.

me- haha! okay. (:

jie - okay go sleep bah :) want chat than sms me anytime i will welcome you.

me- okay. nites nites.

jie- nites vanessa :)

me - same tu u .

jie - ya i will go sleep to le.

will i be able tu see u in ite again.

end of day 1.

why is the god not fair to us!?

why must their take u away!

why must be u!?

u are my best jie tat i nv meet be4.

started tat time i jealous coz u stead wif him.

but now i nv le.

and sorry tat i e 1 who causing u both tu quarrel!

i reali feel bad tat i didnt reply u e last sms tat u send tu me on sat!

sorry!!

jie iloveyou!!

u e best jie in my life!

but why e god must take u away.

why!!

now is 8 in e morning.

and i just wake up at 7 plus.

don noe why wake up so early.

baby do you love me ma ?

i cant feel your love toward me ?

ytd ask u basic question ur answer is dk.

haix~saddieme le.

last time u use tu call me baby now call me vanessa.

wat does this mean ?

we just a normal friend ?

or wat ?

dk wat tu do.

suddenly love you and miss you to e max le.

haix~

is it my hot temper tat i give you ytd.

and u scare le ?

my heart reali brks when i ask u basic question.

haix.

haix. back for posting.

is been long time since we brk.

after all i still missing lyke hell.

is more good tat u didnt sms me.

but why u suddenly sms me?

u noe when u sms me i jiu cant stop and keep on reply ur sms.

and i would continue tu miss u again.

why would u still care about me ?

why don u care about ur stead ?

haix~ now started tu missing u le.

how sia ?

tat time i sms you and ask u do still miss me ?

and u reply yes.

why still miss me.

i think ur miss is lyke missing ur gans and not lyke missing ur stead.

now my heart feel lyke got knife poking through it.

millions of knife in it.

WHY!

why cant forget you ?

why u wann message me ?

why would u still care for me ?

why u still missing me ?

don understand!

3 more week tu perlim and 5 more week tu Nlevel!

haix! reali dk wat tu do le.

back for posting le.

long time bo post.

miss me rite ?

haix! shag sia.

quarrel wif my gan jie.

sorry!

haix.

monday start sch and tat will be 3 more week to PERLIM! and 5 more week to N LEVEL!

wth! didnt even noe tat fast!

today is cca photo taking days!

every one have tu wear cca full uni.

so i sms cherie see she wearing wat tml

todays oso sjab days.

e thing were all push back.

so was late tu have photo taking.

mostly all girls wear is full uni.

onli some didnt wear it.

after taking .

pei elaine , nataling , yi xuan go toilet change.

after change went out at e hall outside saw dao vp.

nataling and elaine skirt were short so have tu walk away.

don let vp saw dao.

slowly walke tu com lab for cpa.

after cpa is pe.

mr tse take us for pe.

we have tu run 4 rounds.

run tu e foyer than u turn back tu e starting point.

do pumping 10 times. do squard 10 times than do pumping again.

due tu our friends we have tu keep on restart e pumping. don noe how many.

went tu recess. didnt notice tat mr tse let us have early recess.

10.30 is our recess. so have early half an hour recess. thanks !

10 tu 11.

went back tu class wif wen hui.

walk 1 big rounds go up e class.

walk past sjab class.

wen hui keep on asking me tu sae cf nelson =.=

but i don wann.

reach classroom. wen hui go lock e front door don let may and e vice - chair person tu come in.

after i go unlock it.

mr lim give us do EBS worksheet and ask e who tu on e aircon.

listened tu music , do worksheet and smsed my baby!

haha!

going tu finish school tat time.

he sae he going tu work le.

left me alone again.

went tu bm buy food reach home around 1 pm ba. if not wrong.

after eat hao le went tu slp.

slp dao 4pm wakes up com dao now.

tats all! byes!

today was class photo taking.

so have tu bring sch uni to sch.

after recess have tu change it coz 12 is my class tu take.

after change suddenly feel hot.

not use tu it.

take photo tat time have tu wear tie!

more hots!

at 2 e sky looks lyke going tu rain.

so i early gets out of school went tu inter.

on e ways tu inter its rains.

is lyke OMG.

i share wif friends the things.

at bukit merah.

i walk under rain.

coz my friend la.

don noe how tu take de.

is lyke onli his shoes wet.

than i is skirt, sch uni and shoes.

reach hime around 2 plus ba.

after tat lazy tu post le.

byes all!